The Balance of the Equinox
March 21, 2008
Despite my downtown condo, I hear birds chirping when I wake up.
I am waking up. Things are good. Beautiful.
Budding.
Growing.
Blooming.
Flowing.
Dr. Hot is … well … hot. So so so sweet to me. And most of these things too. Instead of indulging in the fear of ‘what if’, I keep my mind and body present. Here. Now. This moment. This is the moment that matters.
After years of not being on the ‘right path’ and facing obstacle after obstacle, the universe has decided to make up for lost time. So this crazy luge I’m riding may lead to quitting my job + full-time school + fellowships + independent consulting + applications to doctoral programs + the faculty track.
Could it be?
My dreams?
Coming true?
Really?
Me?
It seems like every time I turn around, there’s someone offering me an opportunity. But I can’t get my hopes up yet. Very little is resolved. But I hope. And hope. And hope some more.
And tomorrow I will gather a flock of kids and their adults for a celebration of spring, complete with an egg scavenger hunt up a long dirt road to the base of a castle, followed by a walk in the woods to look for birds & buds.
At some point, in the shadow of some tree, I will pause for a moment, allow the others to run ahead, look deep into the forest and say:
Thank You.
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1.
Carry | March 21, 2008 at 11:49 pm
Oh, SO glad to hear all is doing better!!! And I’m really glad to hear that you are getting appreciated and trying to live your dreams.
You are a true inspiration my dear!
(oh, sorry to say I’ve joined the single ranks again myself)
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Mel | March 22, 2008 at 12:00 am
This is very much like what happened to me when I moved back to Maine and (re)met David. A whole lot of things fell into just the right place for the first time in several years. It was good, and I’m glad that things are going right for you, too.
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LoriG | March 22, 2008 at 1:46 am
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LoriG | March 22, 2008 at 1:47 am
squeal!
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Rabbitch | March 22, 2008 at 5:37 am
While reading this post I got something in my eyes and they leaked a little.
‘Cause I’m way too butch to cry.
I’m so happy for you. It feels pretty damned good when the hard rocky road turns into one that has cool soft grass on it, doesn’t it?
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CTJen | March 22, 2008 at 7:25 am
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Anne | March 22, 2008 at 7:47 am
I don’t cry, either — yeah.
I am *so* happy to know that you’re in a good place right now.
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Bertha | March 22, 2008 at 8:17 am
So happy for you !
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Mary R | March 22, 2008 at 8:38 am
I’m so happy for you. Hope you & LM enjoy the easter egg hunt.
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Suzanne | March 22, 2008 at 8:39 am
Happy dance, happy dance, happy dance! My inner romantic is running around the yard starkers and throwing daisies all over the place. Phoenix Mafia is rising from her ashes.
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caroleknits | March 22, 2008 at 9:09 am
Hope floats to the surface if you let it. Your post is beautiful and you made me cry.
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Britt | March 22, 2008 at 9:16 am
I have been waiting for you to return with some good news. It sounds like things are moving in a positive directions and that is awesome!
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femiknitter | March 22, 2008 at 9:25 am
Sounds like there are some wonderful things happening for you right now. That’s great news. I’ll be thinking of you.
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Kathy | March 22, 2008 at 9:35 am
That is all GREAT. I am so happy for you.
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Catherine | March 22, 2008 at 9:38 am
You’re back!!!!! Hurrah! So glad to hear that things are going well for you. Love your good news. Have a great holiday.
16.
Meghann | March 22, 2008 at 10:30 am
Excellent…..you totally deserve it
Keep hoping!
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PiGrrrl | March 22, 2008 at 11:01 am
Nice to get an update and even nicer that it’s good. Happy Spring!
18.
no-blog-rachel | March 22, 2008 at 11:20 am
I’ve been thinking about you, wondering how you were. Reading this post made me feel all warm inside. I’m so happy that things are balancing out for you!
*hugs*
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Kat | March 22, 2008 at 11:41 am
Excellent.
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Lucia | March 22, 2008 at 12:41 pm
Rebirth and renewal. How wonderful, and how seasonally congruent. (I am experiencing a bit of that myself lately.)
21.
Megan | March 22, 2008 at 1:03 pm
Yay!
22.
Sara | March 22, 2008 at 5:16 pm
I am so thrilled for you!
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Kathode Ray Tube | March 22, 2008 at 5:17 pm
It’s so great to hear from you on the blog again! And wonderful that things are going well. I actually made it to knitting group this past week but didn’t get to see you….oh well. I hope to see you another time. Keep on truckin.
24.
Danielle | March 22, 2008 at 7:44 pm
I’m keeping my fingers crossed for you …
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lindsey | March 22, 2008 at 8:07 pm
yea! good luck with everything. here’s hoping the goodness continues.
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Justine | March 22, 2008 at 8:46 pm
yes, it’s fabulous when it goes well isn’t it.
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Kit | March 22, 2008 at 9:34 pm
To use the words of a friend who is good with them, it sounds like “you are who you were meant to be”. It’s good to hear it. As well, it’s good to see a post on your blog, and a happy one at that.
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Manise | March 22, 2008 at 10:00 pm
I’m with Rabbitch, Carole and Suzanne regarding the leaky eye thing. So very happy for you!
And glad you’re posting again. You’ve been missed by many!
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Lisa | March 22, 2008 at 10:03 pm
Blotting my eyes…..you so deserve all of this and so much more! Congrats! Happy Easter to you, Dr. Hot, and LM!
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painterwoman | March 23, 2008 at 4:11 am
Woot! I know what you mean about that “luge” experience. Hang on and enjoy the ride!
31.
maryse | March 23, 2008 at 7:53 am
it’s about friggin’ time. good for you! you deserve it.
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Maritza | March 23, 2008 at 12:54 pm
I am so incredibly happy to read this today. I was wondering how you were doing and was a bit worried, but now my mind is at ease. This is such great news. Yay you! You deserve things to be right again. Hell, even better than right - you deserve the universe to catch up and makes things wonderful for you! Enjoy the happy luge.
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Ruth | March 23, 2008 at 11:23 pm
(contented sigh) Sooooooooo glad to read this, I cannot even tell you.
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Cass | March 23, 2008 at 11:49 pm
I’m so glad to hear that things are going well for you. Enjoy the Spring!
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PumpkinMama | March 24, 2008 at 7:15 am
Happy news! Gotta love karma.
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Kelly | March 24, 2008 at 9:02 am
Such exciting news…I’m very happy that things seem to be evening out, and new opportunities are showing themselves. So nice after these troubles you’ve been going through.
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leah | March 24, 2008 at 11:54 am
YAY!
38.
Sarahfish | March 24, 2008 at 1:19 pm
Such happy news! So great. I’m all bubbly for you.
39.
Kat with a K | March 24, 2008 at 1:40 pm
Nice to hear from you. I’m so glad things are going well.
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megin | March 25, 2008 at 10:33 am
So glad the universe is providing for you. And nice to see you back!
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Mary | March 25, 2008 at 3:11 pm
cool, glad you are back and happy.
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Tina "jane come lately" R | March 25, 2008 at 4:58 pm
I am really happy for you! And it’s great to read your writing!
43.
Haddy | March 25, 2008 at 6:37 pm
Me. You. Lunch. Soon. SO HAPPY FOR YOU!
44.
Jenn | March 26, 2008 at 9:43 am
Good for you!!!
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Sitcomgirl | March 27, 2008 at 2:09 am
Oh so glad you are back! I’m so happy things are moving in a positive direction, keep embracing it.
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JulieFrick | March 27, 2008 at 9:19 am
And thank YOU for keeping us in the loop, friend.
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Zuzu Paris | March 27, 2008 at 10:22 am
For over a month I have been clicking on the link to your blog hoping you would appear again. Imagine my delight when I saw a new piece! Of course it made me cry too and I am on the phones you know where!!
You are an inspiration for hope!
I hear we may be seeing you out this way this summer! Lets go out for cocktails if you have time.
My best…..
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Beth S. | March 27, 2008 at 10:23 am
How did I miss this one? That’s a lot of could-be-big-news all crammed in one post. Fingers crossed for Good Things to keep happening.
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katrina | March 27, 2008 at 2:12 pm
So glad for you and for us that you are writing again. Without the loss of the old you would not be free or open to the new. I myself am grateful for all the jerks I dated before I met my beloved. Otherwise I would not truly appreciate the gift of love freely given without condition, flowing out and flowing in.
Warm regards and happy spring.
Katrina
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Rhonda | March 29, 2008 at 2:54 pm
I love hearing “good news” … come over and knit with us soon.
*hugs*
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Bostonworkerbee | March 29, 2008 at 8:34 pm
hey you’re back! I’m glad things are going well. That’s wonderful! Enjoy all these good things.
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honeybee33 | March 31, 2008 at 3:00 pm
WHEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!
~ hb33, flitting in lil circles around duh fleurs ~
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(Not-so) Cynical Knitting Gal | April 7, 2008 at 8:09 am
*sigh* This is lovely.
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dharma | April 11, 2008 at 12:19 pm
How exciting your life sound! Wonderful.
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PainterWoman | April 22, 2008 at 1:28 am
So glad to read that things are going better.
Even so (heh heh), I’m tagging you on my blog!
Best wishes, tootsie.